Transition

So how am I a "not-so-typical college student"? Well, first of all, I am more unhappy here at UNA than I was in high school. Don't get me wrong, I despised high school. But I'm miserable being away from home. I think being in the Honors program at UNA helps, though. I see a lot of the same faces in several classes, and the classes are small. But the pressure gets to me, though, and my anxiety kicks in, my stress level skyrockets, and the next thing I know, I'm on various nausea, gastric, and anxiety medications. Pretty rough introduction of myself, I apologize. I'm not a complete coward, I assure you. I WANT to fit in here. I want to be outgoing and independent. Recently the Honors program took a trip to Memphis, where I met new people and got to know them better. I made several friends, which helped coax me out of my shell, and I found myself laughing and enjoying the whole thing. Yes, even the art museum.. I think walking the city was my favorite part, even more so than the zoo, because it was a new experience. The lights, the people, the buildings, it was all totally alien to me. Then, looking out across the river at the sunset, I felt like I would be okay. So we got on a trolley and rode the city at night. I decided to give college a chance and not quit before it even began. I think if I hadn't gone to Memphis, I wouldn't still be at UNA. I would've bailed. I would be at home now, and probably going to the local community college with my old schoolmates. I'm still not certain about my future, whether I will stay at UNA or what I even want to major in, but for now, I'm not going to give up so easily.